40 -ALWAYS A BRIDESMAID

still have to be a girl!

As he left the platform, I knew that the next time I saw that dress, a blushing bride would be having the day of her life.

As Baily's mother carefully undid all the buttons, then took the headpiece off of him, I could hear her excitement. She said, "Oh honey! You've worn bridesmaid dresses before but NEVER in a real wedding! You'll never be the same!"

When I saw Baily the next morning, he was nervous and excited---all at the same time. I guess the way any bride would be...

THE BIG DAY...

You have all been to a big wedding so you know what they are like. Since this is not a wedding guide book, I will focus on what was in my mind as I watched Baily.

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Although I helped my father set up some flowers, my main job was to escort Baily to the wedding and protect him from exposure and some drunken partier.

But I couldn't protect Baily from the most threatening thing I saw----what wearing a sensuous silky dress and lingerie could do. I saw it in his eyes. There was actually something more to it than just the embarrassment of being treated like a girl. I saw a certain pleasure appear when he knew someone was staring at him because he was pretty.

There seemed to be several different but distinct interacting sensations going on in his mind.

First of all, humiliation! For Baily to display a girl's waist, hips, bosom, and thighs by wearing a fitted dress must have made him feel hideous. Every time he moved, he'd feel the stimulation and

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I looked at my buddy in make-up and carrying flowers in his hands. He was playing the part of a bride tonight but tomorrow he'd still have to be a girl!